My Tongue Hurts

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My tongue hurts and I know exactly why, it’s bitten it clean through. It’s not easy leaving a job under many circumstances, but this one is proving to be a difficult challenge. There is severance pay and a “job completion bonus” dangling at the end of it. And we are reminded daily. Should be glad, but I feel like I’ve been licking a doormat.

I’m getting a little concerned because, for the last few days, everything that happens, including the wind blowing is “my fault.” There isn’t any fault involved really. Got scolded this morning for missing a deadline that hasn’t happened yet, so evidently time travel is now involved. I’m trying to chalk it up to stress on the part of those who are left behind. They have to (or think they have to) put up with the corporate yo-yo for years to come.

As I step away, it becomes clear how dysfunctional our little group had become. It was beyond time to take a big broom and sweep out all the dust or beat someone over the head with it.

Office Blame Game

9 responses

  1. Sounds tough. In some ways it reminds me of a job where the “pet” was allowed to accuse me of anything. If I even said I didn’t do whatever it was I was told I was being argumentative. Also, told I needed to change my personality. I was expected to let the pet walk all over me without ever saying anything. The odd thing is that I was the one who was required to be there for our funding. She didn’t have the needed experience, degrees or certifications.

    1. Ah, thank you so much for sharing. One more thing to remind myself about when I get scared by the upcoming change in my life.

  2. take a deep breath … just some more days and you´ll be out of it

    1. Just 15 business days to go! 🙂

  3. “My tongue hurts and I know exactly why, it’s bitten it clean through.”

    I think this is happening throughout America.

    1. hmmm… We either need to form a support group or start speaking up.

  4. Just keep breathing… the next three weeks will be some of the most surreal of your life. Great that you have a blog to record it!

    The last couple of months leading up to the restructure in November here was when I started doing an image every day – it was a kind of thereapy – finding a way to express my confusion, rage, amusement, bemusement, glee, sorrow and finally relief… then I guess it had become habit, but also, a form of journaling that expressed more than words…

    1. Thanks for the heads up and encouragement. I’m definately going to blog it with words and pictures.

      1. I think the hardest thing as an impending ‘leaver’ is to have empathy for those remaining. While the pay heck will still arrive as usual, pretty much everything else in their work life is about to fall into deep flux and they are losing you and all the other ‘yous.’
        I am personal friends with quite a few of my former colleagues and only starting to see how they are struggling with managers who don’t know wthey do or how they do it, making unrealistic demands… Many if not most are quite miserable… I was the lucky one, though it didn’t feel like it at the time…

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