What a Difference 10 Mgs Makes

What a difference 10 little milligrams makes. The clouds have parted, the sun is shining, the birds are singing, the cat is meowing. I’m back to writing again. Got 14,000 words in on the NaNoWriMo frontier.

Last week I deteriorated into a spineless, humorless, irritable, irrational, brainless blob of quivering ectoplasm. It would have been easy to get a job as an extra in a horror movie portraying the green slime dripping down the wall. That’s how I felt, anyway. If I was going to portray slime I would insist on being hot pink slime, if in my right mind.

Unless you’ve fallen down that dark cold depression rabbit hole it’s difficult to imagine. The only thing I did know last week was that I did NOT want to do anything, go anywhere, eat anything, go to bed, get out of bed, watch TV, take a bath or see what color the sky was. Zero, zip, nada. Everything was shades of gray. Going outside was scary because I might hear the wind blow and that would make me sad. We are just dust in the wind right?  I felt already ground to dust.  The kind that would not giggle if tickled by a feather duster.

Then after a talk with my beloved head shrinker, we decided to up my meds by a measly 10 mgs. Yee haa! I’m me again. I recognize that woman in the mirror. I’m back to my old self. Laughing, singing, dancing, designing silly hats in my mind, writing about anything and everything that suits my fancy. Mr. Husband and I went to dinner and a movie last night. I’ll have you know I put on makeup, my new boots with the punky silver buckles, and even a bra! How cool is that?

The Immortals @ IMDB.com

The movie we went to see was “The Immortals.” It was the bloodiest, high tech, computer enhanced, festival of gore and guts, with absolutely no point what-so-ever, that I have ever seen in my entire life. Proves that old point of “just because you can – doesn’t mean you should”… make the film, pay money to go see it, try to figure it out. I thought it was going to be about Greek gods. Well it was, but that was just a backdrop for the non stop carnage. I have now seen a man cleaved in half from side to side, top to bottom, decapitated, dismembered, or detongued. I looked through the 2 halves of a split body to see another man run through with a trident in slow motion. And that was the light stuff. Not for the faint at heart. I don’t recommend it.

10 responses

  1. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh – I forgot you are in on that too! Good luck!

  2. Egads, I’m glad that movie didn’t throw you right back into the depths of depression. Welcome back, and thank you being courageous enough to write about the down side of life. I really admire your candidness, esp about a topic that some people wouldn’t want to hear about.

  3. Another nanowrimo’er – hurray! We’re all one deficiency away from the sluggish. Mine has shown up in Vitamin D. Take whatever you need to shine. Life’s too short to suffer. I’ll see you at the finish line.

    1. Hmm. I have been slacking off on the Vitamin D. Need to drag and dust my supplements. Thanks for the encouragement.

  4. Awww,glad you’re feeling better.As a faithful reader I had no idea you were so down,it didn’t reflect in your writing.

    1. Awww thank you Sweetie. It reflects more in the fact that I don’t write at all and turn into a vegetable.

  5. Thanks for the warning about the movie. Meanwhile so glad to hear you’re on the go again, but about that bra …

    1. LOL well about that bra…sometimes I have to go to the dark side.

  6. Glad to hear you’re feeling so much better and thank you for the warning about The Immortals. I suspected as much after seeing a 1 minute clip of it in the theater the other night when we went to see Puss and Boots. Puss was cute as always. So you’re participating in that NaNoWriMo contest? What’s it like? Have you done it before?

    1. NaNoWriMo is interesting challenge. The point of slamming down 50k words in 30 days is to let the thoughts flow and keep you from going back and editing your story to death. And no I’ve never tried it before.

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