I tend to use the Scarlet O’Hara method of coping when I’m stressed out. A big smile and “Tomorrow is Another Day.” The only thing I can hold onto is the fact that tomorrow will be different. It may be better or it may be worse. But, it won’t be the same. Thank you, Jesus. Can I get an “Amen?”
Well today, which was yesterday’s tomorrow, is a wonderful day. I finally broke down and went to the spine doctor. “Doctor God” I shall now call him. The Hubman went with me for hand holding and a reality check. I found out that I have a herniated disc in my neck. The embarrassing part of this was that somehow I had blocked this out. For 2 years Mr. Husband and Mom-in-law knew, the doctor pointed out that he had shown me this on the MRI film years ago as well. I guess my mind just wasn’t ready for it yet. I was shocked, flabbergasted, and immediately burst into tears.
Hubman recognized the look on my face and handed me tissues before I even needed them. How cool is that? A woman in tears will cause a frenzy of activity even in a clinical setting with a Doctor and spouse supervising the show. The doctor scrutinized my chart like never before and Mr. Husband comforted me.
So now I know. Next week I have to get shots in my neck. Not real happy about this but I know I will feel sooooo much better, for a year or 2. It’s nice that there is a non-surgical solution, even if it involves needles.
Back to why is today a wonderful day? Because I am almost completely pain-free for the first time in months. Doc God gave me a different kind of muscle relaxers and they are a little miracle in pill form. Chronic pain can cause your muscles to tie themselves up in little rock hard knots. Today my muscles are relaxed but I don’t feel dopey, sleepy, or grumpy. This is a God send. I’ll take it as a gift and enjoy every minute.
So for the moment, I’m thinking I don’t need no stinking shots in my neck. I know it isn’t true and I will keep my appointment. However, today is party time. I feel happy!