Book Review – From Psychic to Psychotic

From Psychic to PsychoticI just finished reading a book “From Psychic to Psychotic and Beyond – A True Story of My Bipolar Disorder,” by Kerry Ann Jacobs. The most frightening aspect of the book, from my point of view, is that I don’t think the author has reached a stable state of mind. The final note of the book is a request to contact her with any psychic experiences you have had because she is working on a 2nd and 3rd book about psychic phenomenon.

I suspect that she is either misdiagnosed or has a dual diagnosis. Some of the experiences she describes sound a lot more like schizophrenia than bipolar, especially the hearing voices part.

The first 70 pages of the book is a long , drawn out, day by day, blow-by-blow ramble of a 2 year period where she claimed to hang out on a daily basis with the spirit bodies of Jude Law, Heath Ledger, Marilyn Monroe, Michael Jackson, Elvis Presley, Princess Di, Michael the Archangel, and so on. She also had a constant companion she called Wes, who she claimed was a husband from a previous life. They had a spirit child together which no one could see. At one point the angels told her that the world had actually ended and that everyone was in a spirit body.

She heard voices that at first were friendly and helped her and then became demons that threatened and abused her, including sexual abuse. They told her that she had died and was living in hell. An interesting metaphor since having an untreated mental illness can indeed feel like living in hell.

While she was suffering through this rather spectacular meltdown she became deeply involved with psychic dabblings such as tarot cards and crystal balls. She was a practicing lawyer and began to offer reading to her clients. Eventually she didn’t need the crystal ball and could see messages written on the carpet or hear them in her head. It comes as no surprise that she fell into a financial crisis because she was losing clients right and left, but kept spending money as if she had a thriving practice. In the portion of the book written from her mother’s point of view she stated that Jacobs was $36,000 in debt at the time of her first trip to the mental hospital.

This went on for years. My question is how the hell did anyone not pick up on the fact that she was as crazy as a bedbug? Her friends and parents were scared and concerned, but I know how difficult it is to convince someone who is mentally ill that there is something wrong and they need help.

She finally reached out for help when the demons threatened to kill her. She called her mother who, being a 50 minute drive away, sent her brother to pick her up. The police also came. By the time they got there the demons had told her that the police and her brother were also demons masquerading as the police and her brother, so they had a hell of a time getting her to the hospital.

Arriving at the hospital, Jacobs is convinced that everyone at the hospital were also demons. She fought and refused to take medication being convinced it was poison. The hospital staff injected her with a sedative that didn’t have much effect.

The next part of the book, after her first hospitalization, she battles with accepting she has an illness, goes of her meds, the voices come back, and of course she bounces back in the hospital 6 months later. The scariest part of this section of the book is that she seems to focus more on what to say or not say to a psychiatrist to get released from the hospital, rather than how to recover and manage her illness. At no point in the book does she come out and state clearly that she had an illness and was not a psychic. The closest she got was to explain that because she was bipolar she was “too sensitive” to be involved in psychic practices.

The next section of the book is page after page of doctors reports from her numerous hospitalizations. They pretty much all said the same thing over and over so it was rather redundant.

The final whammy of the book was what I mentioned earlier. On her “final note” page she gives her email address and asks people to contact her regarding any psychic experiences because she is writing books about it. This part made my blood run cold. This woman is obviously not in recovery or a stable state of mind and gives every indication that she’s heading right back down the rabbit hole.

My heart goes out to this woman and can only imagine how much she suffers. I’m grateful every day that I have a combo of meds to keep me in a stable and happy state of being. This book really rammed it home that things could have gotten a lot worse before they got better…if they got better. I seem to be blessed with enough self-awareness that when things start to go bad, I run screaming to my psychiatrist like my hair is one fire.

11 responses

  1. I’m the author and I have been running my legal practice again for more than a year now.

    1. I’m very happy that you are back to functioning and running your legal practice. I love happy endings. As I stated I was concerned after reading your book. Thank you so much for commenting.

  2. Great recommendation and review.

    1. Thank you Mr. Hook. I feel an obligation to warn people about bad books, especially about books written about bipolar. I feel that I have the authority in that I’m bipolar myself so I know what it feels like from the inside.

  3. Yowza! That does sound like all the symptoms of schizophrenia. I wonder when it began, because schizophrenia tends to be a disease people get when they’re fairly young, early 20s and such. I do think there are legit psychics, but this sounds like someone with a mental illness.

    1. I have to agree with you.

  4. CandyforbreakfastVeronica | Reply

    I’m ‘sensing’ this woman needs a new doctor. Plus Jude Law is still alive… does HE know they were hanging out? Poor woman, I hope she gets the help she needs too.
    In her defense lots of perfectly sane folks believe fervently in angels and demons. Who’s crazier, the woman who saw Saint Mary on a piece of toast or the lunatic who paid vast sums of cash for burnt toast?
    Now if she was actually hearing voices?! Well then I feel it’s very much to her credit she managed to put together a book. The title suggests a hopeful self help, I guess your takeaway was more like reading the diary of a currently still crazy…

    1. Yes it was very much like reading the diary of someone who is still crazy. I’m not suggesting that people who believe in angels and demons are crazy either, however, she was totally caught up in the other worldliness to the point that the “real” world was not evident to her. The voices were running her life.

  5. A good thing you are a clever person. Generally speaking, people can read and believe and repeat what they read as if it were true, not questioning the information. A pity that people who don´t know anything about bipolarity are exposed at this misguided book and someone may think that bipolars are like this. Poor woman, really.

    1. I have decided to chuck this book in the recycle bin because I don’t want to pass it on to a charity or used book store. The book was self published so there was not editor and any kind of professional reality check. Someone looking for insight into bipolar disorder would be scared to death at reading this. Bipolar mania can cause delusional behavior, but hanging out for years with imaginary people, demons and angels is not a usual behavior. I’ve done some impulsive and wacky things during a manic phase, but I cooked them up in my own brain, nobody was giving me messages from beyond.

      1. self published!! that explains why it was published!!! Yes!! don´t let that book go to anybody´s hands!!! I have a friend who is bipolar and I got to know how it works through her. She is fine with the meds and there was one occasion she had troubles but as you said, it was her brain and not some super natural being!!!

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