I tend to use the Scarlet O’Hara method of coping when I’m stressed out. A big smile and “Tomorrow is Another Day.” The only thing I can hold onto is the fact that tomorrow will be different. It may be better or it may be worse. But, it won’t be the same. Thank you, Jesus. Can I get an “Amen?”
Well today, which was yesterday’s tomorrow, is a wonderful day. I finally broke down and went to the spine doctor. “Doctor God” I shall now call him. The Hubman went with me for hand holding and a reality check. I found out that I have a herniated disc in my neck. The embarrassing part of this was that somehow I had blocked this out. For 2 years Mr. Husband and Mom-in-law knew, the doctor pointed out that he had shown me this on the MRI film years ago as well. I guess my mind just wasn’t ready for it yet. I was shocked, flabbergasted, and immediately burst into tears.
Hubman recognized the look on my face and handed me tissues before I even needed them. How cool is that? A woman in tears will cause a frenzy of activity even in a clinical setting with a Doctor and spouse supervising the show. The doctor scrutinized my chart like never before and Mr. Husband comforted me.
So now I know. Next week I have to get shots in my neck. Not real happy about this but I know I will feel sooooo much better, for a year or 2. It’s nice that there is a non-surgical solution, even if it involves needles.
Back to why is today a wonderful day? Because I am almost completely pain-free for the first time in months. Doc God gave me a different kind of muscle relaxers and they are a little miracle in pill form. Chronic pain can cause your muscles to tie themselves up in little rock hard knots. Today my muscles are relaxed but I don’t feel dopey, sleepy, or grumpy. This is a God send. I’ll take it as a gift and enjoy every minute.
So for the moment, I’m thinking I don’t need no stinking shots in my neck. I know it isn’t true and I will keep my appointment. However, today is party time. I feel happy!
A balanced diet is a cookie in each hand. Now that’s what I’m talking about!
Life is too short to obsess about it, in my not so humble opinion. I’ve read some pretty ridiculous things over the years about an alleged healthy diet. Food allergies was a big bugaboo for about a decade. A licensed nutritionist in all seriousness told me that if I was craving a certain food I was allergic to it. That’s taking the theory of “if you want it, it’s not good for you – if you hate it, it’s good for you” to the ultimate extreme.
Sure our bodies get out of whack on occasion, but that doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t listen to them. Last week, my neck was killing me. Instead of pumping myself full of pain meds, I decided to climb out on a limb and talk to Mr. Hubman. I told him that I was really struggling and that I needed him to step up to the plate and be more proactive. I also made a mental of list of things that are figuratively a pain in my neck. A struck a line through them!
Hubster has a tendency to throw out vague suggestions and they land on my lap like a lump of wet blanket. I tried to be specific. “Would you like to go to the Japanese restaurant tonight?” instead of a listless “you wanna do sumthin?” When that happens I feel like I have to come up with an idea, sell him on it, and make all the plans. To much for this befuzzled brain to handle. I don’t want to haul anyone around piggy back. I told him “you asked, how can I help? This is how.”
So back to the balanced diet and cravings. I like chocolate, red meat, coffee, butter, beer and martinis. It seems like a good idea to not eat them? Fiddlesticks, hogwash , etc., etc. That’s not good enough anymore. I feel a lot better when I let my body decide what it needs and wants. This constant monitoring and fussing is well…a pain in the neck!
I’m sharing this picture below. It’s been floating around on Facebook. It’s food for thought 🙂